I don't do public meditations every day. Just when I feel prodded to that there is a message to be said for you all. Today was that day!
The Tree of Life appeared to me after a few quiet minutes. I wish you could see what I do, for it truly is such a magnificent sight to behold. The tree is so huge that you would have to walk far away to be able to take it all in. The branches are thick, the trunk is humongous and ancient, and the leaves are vibrant green and seem to chime or sing in a gentle breeze. This tree is healing, and cooling as well. It offers a safe haven as it teaches at the same time. Most people would think of it in the feminine form, but I have always heard it speak to me through the masculine.
Usually when I see the Tree of Life, it's cradling me within its branches to heal me from whatever part of a journey that has been unusually tough. Today, however, I found myself standing near the base of the trunk. The Tree of Life asked me to look up and take in all its branches and huge limbs.
"See the way they fork and twist?"
I looked as far as I could, but there were just so many to try to take in at once. I nodded that I could.
Tree of Life said, "As you can see, there are many different paths to take should you decide to climb my branches to get to the top. There isn't a simple straight path. When you come to a fork, there are different options on how you choose to proceed. There aren't any right or wrong paths. They will all come to the same outcome in the end, as they all grow out and upwards toward the sun where the light shines the brightest.
"And so such is life. Don't fret about being on the 'right path' in life. No matter which twist and turn you take, no matter how many forks in the road you are faced with, you will always eventually come to the same outcome if you are patient and willing to be a part of the journey. Your desired outcome will be waiting for you. Should you grow impatient and fall out of the tree, you only need to pick yourself back up and start again. How many times you choose to fall and how slowly you choose to inch your way is up to you.
"When life seems as if you're 'off track', know you are where you're supposed to be at this very moment for your soul's growth. Some of you will argue that you can feel that you're off track meaning that you can't possibly be on the right path, but don't know how to get to where you would like to be. It is within Divine Timing. When everything aligns perfectly in both timing and your physical world, the branches will no longer seem jumbled and confusing. Pouting and sitting on a branch does nothing but keep yourself from making progress. Be willing to use patience and observance....always looking until you see an opening that will bring you closer to the end of the path."
The scene switched and I saw two angels. One was lovingly brushing through the hair of the other. They had only love and serenity on their faces. I then saw angels greeting loved ones as they crossed over from our physical world into Heaven. The joy upon the faces of the people was amazing to see. I also saw people walking hand in hand in complete harmony and emitting so much love. I was told that I was witnessing a community without ego and this is why so many of us yearn for "Home". We long for a place where everything is happy all the time, where no one fights or throws egos around, and there is total peace. They want us to know, however, that such a place already exists inside of us. We don't need to go to Heaven or find this within other people or things. Happiness is found within. It's a part of us that comes from the pure love we all bring with us and only needs to be recognized and tapped into. The biggest message given to me from this was "Get out of your heads and back into your hearts!"
Christine Watts Intuitive Services: Awakening your inner light and empowerment
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
A Window to an Epiphany
Today while waiting for my dad to pick me up so we could go to the gym together, I sat on the couch next to our large living room window. The cats and I were enjoying a warm winter Southern California breeze. I could hear the chattering of some people outside, but it took a while before they came up the sidewalk into my view. They were two elderly women. One was using a walker to hold herself up and the other woman was holding her arm. They looked as if they were in their late 70s to 80s.
Most people would have looked at these two women and lose interest in them because they were inching their way so slowly on their walk. At first glance, there was nothing "special" about them. Just two old ladies out on a nice day. I was still waiting for Dad and had to keep an eye out for his car, so I continued to look out the window. I'm glad I did. I realized a few moments later that the scene before me was truly beautiful and magical!
Both women were dressed in pretty pastel spring colors, even though it's still winter. They just went perfect with our gorgeous 78 degree weather day. They were smiling and talking, when suddenly the more able bodied woman let go of her friend's arm and began acting out something she was telling the other about. Both women started laughing. The woman with the walker had to stop because she was laughing so hard. The sound of their laughter sang to my ears. Colors, the sun glowing upon their white hair, laughter carrying throughout the street, tenderness as the one woman continued to help the other with her walker, friendship, companionship, smiles, and beautiful heart chakras. What more could we ever truly want in life than to have what those two women had in that one moment of time? Money could not have bought what came so naturally on such a gorgeous day.
It took a little bit before they cleared my view because of how slowly they had to walk. I consider it a blessed opportunity to be shown beauty in the form of something so unexpected. The things that matter most in life are really that simple.
Christine Watts Intuitive Services: Awakening your inner light and empowerment
Most people would have looked at these two women and lose interest in them because they were inching their way so slowly on their walk. At first glance, there was nothing "special" about them. Just two old ladies out on a nice day. I was still waiting for Dad and had to keep an eye out for his car, so I continued to look out the window. I'm glad I did. I realized a few moments later that the scene before me was truly beautiful and magical!
Both women were dressed in pretty pastel spring colors, even though it's still winter. They just went perfect with our gorgeous 78 degree weather day. They were smiling and talking, when suddenly the more able bodied woman let go of her friend's arm and began acting out something she was telling the other about. Both women started laughing. The woman with the walker had to stop because she was laughing so hard. The sound of their laughter sang to my ears. Colors, the sun glowing upon their white hair, laughter carrying throughout the street, tenderness as the one woman continued to help the other with her walker, friendship, companionship, smiles, and beautiful heart chakras. What more could we ever truly want in life than to have what those two women had in that one moment of time? Money could not have bought what came so naturally on such a gorgeous day.
It took a little bit before they cleared my view because of how slowly they had to walk. I consider it a blessed opportunity to be shown beauty in the form of something so unexpected. The things that matter most in life are really that simple.
Christine Watts Intuitive Services: Awakening your inner light and empowerment
14 Jan 11: Power in vibrations, and simple moments (Meditation)
Christine Watts Intuitive Services: Awakening your inner light and empowerment
Today's meditation was short. I was met with a field of green which represents nature, love, compassion, and healing. A shaman appeared and he began to dance and chant all around me. I got goosebumps all over my arms and legs in my physical world as I could feel the energy emitting from him. He did this for about a minute before he stopped and told me that the ancient wisdom has so much power in it. I asked him why? Did we really have to do rites in order to be healed? Why couldn't we just believe we are healed without all the other stuff?
He said we could, and the ancient rites are just the same as believing it is so. He told me that it isn't so much the words we use but rather the tone, the vibration, and strength that comes through with the words that gives us faith, courage, and belief that the words are true. He explained to me that the vibrations sends out our intent into the Universe.....much like when we use affirmations. If we weakly say something that we want to "be so", we don't have much conviction in our words. Therefore we negate that which we want. But if we use the strength and power like the ancients did in their chants and dances, we are believing in the words and bringing to us that which we want.
The scene changed and I caught a glimpse of one of my past lives in the late 1880s/early 1890s Victorian era. I was sitting up against a tree by a river in the summertime. I had on a white silk dress and hat, but I wasn't concerned about getting dirty. I was very much at peace with the warmth of the sun making me sleepy, the sound of the water lulling me, and hearing the buzzing of insects and chattering of birds all around me. It was pure bliss. No worries, no tasks to be done, no time to pay attention to. Just me and nature all around me bonding in spirit. This was one of the best moments in life. And guess what? It was so simple! No modern conveniences, no hub bub of activity, no Internet, no lottery win, and nothing else that people think they need to have in order to be happy. Nature and self. It was really that simple.
And as I left that scene, the meditation came to a close.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
12 Jan 11: Your Inner Goddess (Meditation)
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This meditation is for the ladies!
As I settled into calm and meditation, I was surprised to see such a bright, glittery golden glow all around me. One of the most gorgeous women I had ever seen appeared before me dressed in a long, flowing golden gown that glittered and sparkled. She also wore a veil of very light material upon her head like a mantilla. I knew immediately that gold is the color of high intuition and psychic awareness. What I didn't understand, however, was what I was supposed to take away from seeing her because all she did was smile at me and dance around. There were no words exchanged, no scene change, and no stall in the meditation (as what happens when my Team wants me to stop and write down what I'm seeing).
Finally I asked, "Who is she?"
A male voice told me, "She is you."
Wow. I guess I looked better than I thought! Ha ha! I smiled and asked how is this so? Was I looking at a past life or something? It was explained to me that she is me then, now, and in the future. She was my inner goddess. I didn't say anything more because I was in awe of this revelation. I couldn't believe that this gorgeous woman was actually me. I wanted to reach out and touch her to see if she felt real....but for some reason I didn't dare. Don't ask me why I hesitated.
The voice then said, "There is an inner goddess within all of you. You were all born with it. It's always been a part of you and cannot be erased."
I was told the purpose of this scene was to tell others that no matter how they feel about themselves, how they look, how much they weigh, what sort of clothes they wear, and no matter what their self-esteem is like, there is a beautiful, pure, fearless, highly intuitive goddess within every single woman. To gain access to this part of you, all you have to do is close your eyes and be willing to see this gorgeous self. She/you will come to give you a glimpse of that which can never be marred, cheapened, neglected, diminished, abused, disfigured, or worthless. If you ever feel less than a goddess due to your own beliefs, how others have made you feel, your environment, or circumstances, close your eyes and remember that you are so much more than your flesh and outer world.
The meditation ended at that.
This meditation is for the ladies!
As I settled into calm and meditation, I was surprised to see such a bright, glittery golden glow all around me. One of the most gorgeous women I had ever seen appeared before me dressed in a long, flowing golden gown that glittered and sparkled. She also wore a veil of very light material upon her head like a mantilla. I knew immediately that gold is the color of high intuition and psychic awareness. What I didn't understand, however, was what I was supposed to take away from seeing her because all she did was smile at me and dance around. There were no words exchanged, no scene change, and no stall in the meditation (as what happens when my Team wants me to stop and write down what I'm seeing).
Finally I asked, "Who is she?"
A male voice told me, "She is you."
Wow. I guess I looked better than I thought! Ha ha! I smiled and asked how is this so? Was I looking at a past life or something? It was explained to me that she is me then, now, and in the future. She was my inner goddess. I didn't say anything more because I was in awe of this revelation. I couldn't believe that this gorgeous woman was actually me. I wanted to reach out and touch her to see if she felt real....but for some reason I didn't dare. Don't ask me why I hesitated.
The voice then said, "There is an inner goddess within all of you. You were all born with it. It's always been a part of you and cannot be erased."
I was told the purpose of this scene was to tell others that no matter how they feel about themselves, how they look, how much they weigh, what sort of clothes they wear, and no matter what their self-esteem is like, there is a beautiful, pure, fearless, highly intuitive goddess within every single woman. To gain access to this part of you, all you have to do is close your eyes and be willing to see this gorgeous self. She/you will come to give you a glimpse of that which can never be marred, cheapened, neglected, diminished, abused, disfigured, or worthless. If you ever feel less than a goddess due to your own beliefs, how others have made you feel, your environment, or circumstances, close your eyes and remember that you are so much more than your flesh and outer world.
The meditation ended at that.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
It All Begins Young
If you had never been told the word "no", or had never been told that something couldn't happen, would you believe that you could have anything you wanted? Would you believe that you could do anything you put your mind to?
So many of us parents have told our children they couldn't do something or have something because we were limited on what we could do at the time to help them achieve their wants and desires. Therefore, our children have learned limited beliefs on abundance and dreams. Instead of believing that all things can come to them from Source through limitless possibilities, they come into the belief that everything must come from us or they get nothing at all.
What are we to do then if we do not have the tools at hand to help make things possible for our children? The best thing a parent can tell a child is that something cannot come from their mother and/or father at this time, but perhaps at another time. In the meantime, they should ask the child should think of other ways to obtain that which they desire. You might be surprised with what they come up with.
Children believe what they are told until they grow and hopefully discover on their own that what has been passed down was due to their parents' own beliefs. To say that something is not possible is limiting their ability to see that there is always more than one way of going about things. BUT. Children who are taught to think of other options and come up with creative solutions are the ones who will excel in life at a younger age more easily than their peers. Think of the young entrepreneurs. They became successful at such young ages because they did not limit themselves. Instead of stopping at roadblocks, they were able to see their way around and beyond them to discover a different path.
Unfortunately, "no" and limited thinking had already been set in this house years ago and it's a habit that has been hard to get rid of. All is not lost, however. My 16 year old son really took my epiphany to heart in the last year and has been discovering many other ways. I call him my go-getter because he no longer accepts "no" or "cannot" as an answer from anyone and moves forward to the next option, rather than backing away and calling defeat or failure. Along the way, he has discovered that the paths that didn't work out were not failures, but rather paths he learned from to try something different and better the next time. Those past paths have been great teachers to him, and now he is defeating the odds in some areas of his life and manifesting things that continue to amaze me. Not all areas yet, but he'll get there.
So many of us parents have told our children they couldn't do something or have something because we were limited on what we could do at the time to help them achieve their wants and desires. Therefore, our children have learned limited beliefs on abundance and dreams. Instead of believing that all things can come to them from Source through limitless possibilities, they come into the belief that everything must come from us or they get nothing at all.
What are we to do then if we do not have the tools at hand to help make things possible for our children? The best thing a parent can tell a child is that something cannot come from their mother and/or father at this time, but perhaps at another time. In the meantime, they should ask the child should think of other ways to obtain that which they desire. You might be surprised with what they come up with.
Children believe what they are told until they grow and hopefully discover on their own that what has been passed down was due to their parents' own beliefs. To say that something is not possible is limiting their ability to see that there is always more than one way of going about things. BUT. Children who are taught to think of other options and come up with creative solutions are the ones who will excel in life at a younger age more easily than their peers. Think of the young entrepreneurs. They became successful at such young ages because they did not limit themselves. Instead of stopping at roadblocks, they were able to see their way around and beyond them to discover a different path.
Unfortunately, "no" and limited thinking had already been set in this house years ago and it's a habit that has been hard to get rid of. All is not lost, however. My 16 year old son really took my epiphany to heart in the last year and has been discovering many other ways. I call him my go-getter because he no longer accepts "no" or "cannot" as an answer from anyone and moves forward to the next option, rather than backing away and calling defeat or failure. Along the way, he has discovered that the paths that didn't work out were not failures, but rather paths he learned from to try something different and better the next time. Those past paths have been great teachers to him, and now he is defeating the odds in some areas of his life and manifesting things that continue to amaze me. Not all areas yet, but he'll get there.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Finding Center by Just Being Yourself
It never ceases to amaze me the things people think they have to do in order to be more "spiritual" or open up to their intuition and psychic awareness. Let me tell you that the only thing you have to do is just be yourself and do what feels right to you.
There are many people out there that will try to dictate all the dos and don'ts....and if you go don't follow these rules, then you're supposedly not spiritual. Wow. Isn't that the reason why so many of us left mainstream organized religion? So many rules and if you don't follow them, you're not a real whatever? That would mean that being spiritual and intuitive is only reserved for those special few, rather than be available to everyone. NOT!
Instead of realizing that these are simply people with their own ideas of what makes one spiritual or not, people start spending all sorts of money on crystals and other tools to get back in tuned with themselves, quit eating meat (even if they're dying for a hamburger), chastise themselves if they think something negative, feel bad about the car they drive, try to change their job because those in the spiritual community would frown upon it (such as serving in the military)............just in the effort to fit in and hope to be able to tap into the various clairs for guidance and knowing.
I say quit punishing yourselves! Being spiritual isn't about deprivation, outside tools, and feeling badly if you aren't acting in ways that others say a spiritual person would. You cannot contain spiritualism and intuition into a neat little box. It's ever expanding! It encompasses everything! It's messy! No matter how much you try to define it and put boundaries around it, it's just going to flow right on over in whatever way it wants to. How you can you put a label on something that is not only within, but all around you?
There are so many people who have shared what has worked for them. And that is exactly how you should view things.....advice always with the opportunity to decide for yourself if it's something you'd like or not. If it makes your body feel good to eat vegetarian, raw, or vegan, then by all means do it! If you like holding crystals while you meditate because you like the energy you can feel from them, do it! If you notice a happy difference in getting rid of all chemicals in your environment, go for it! The point is, it should feel GOOD to you. If you're feeling guilty for not being or doing all these things, you're moving away from the original intent. If you do not feel happy while making changes, then you are not staying true to yourself. Spirit doesn't care if you eat meat, have shot a gun or been deployed to Iraq, or anything else that is an experience but doesn't define who you are. Do you really think Spirit is going to withhold from you because of what you do? No. Only we hold ourselves back.
Just be yourself and march to the beat of your own drum. You can be just as spiritual and in tuned to your intuition as you do the things you love. If it makes you happy, you have found your center. And within your center, you just ARE. I've said this before and I'll say it again. "I AM" is the most powerful thing you can ever be.
There are many people out there that will try to dictate all the dos and don'ts....and if you go don't follow these rules, then you're supposedly not spiritual. Wow. Isn't that the reason why so many of us left mainstream organized religion? So many rules and if you don't follow them, you're not a real whatever? That would mean that being spiritual and intuitive is only reserved for those special few, rather than be available to everyone. NOT!
Instead of realizing that these are simply people with their own ideas of what makes one spiritual or not, people start spending all sorts of money on crystals and other tools to get back in tuned with themselves, quit eating meat (even if they're dying for a hamburger), chastise themselves if they think something negative, feel bad about the car they drive, try to change their job because those in the spiritual community would frown upon it (such as serving in the military)............just in the effort to fit in and hope to be able to tap into the various clairs for guidance and knowing.
I say quit punishing yourselves! Being spiritual isn't about deprivation, outside tools, and feeling badly if you aren't acting in ways that others say a spiritual person would. You cannot contain spiritualism and intuition into a neat little box. It's ever expanding! It encompasses everything! It's messy! No matter how much you try to define it and put boundaries around it, it's just going to flow right on over in whatever way it wants to. How you can you put a label on something that is not only within, but all around you?
There are so many people who have shared what has worked for them. And that is exactly how you should view things.....advice always with the opportunity to decide for yourself if it's something you'd like or not. If it makes your body feel good to eat vegetarian, raw, or vegan, then by all means do it! If you like holding crystals while you meditate because you like the energy you can feel from them, do it! If you notice a happy difference in getting rid of all chemicals in your environment, go for it! The point is, it should feel GOOD to you. If you're feeling guilty for not being or doing all these things, you're moving away from the original intent. If you do not feel happy while making changes, then you are not staying true to yourself. Spirit doesn't care if you eat meat, have shot a gun or been deployed to Iraq, or anything else that is an experience but doesn't define who you are. Do you really think Spirit is going to withhold from you because of what you do? No. Only we hold ourselves back.
Just be yourself and march to the beat of your own drum. You can be just as spiritual and in tuned to your intuition as you do the things you love. If it makes you happy, you have found your center. And within your center, you just ARE. I've said this before and I'll say it again. "I AM" is the most powerful thing you can ever be.
28 Dec. 10: Sustained by nature, waiting for clarity, and cutting through the darkness (Meditation)
Before I begin, I just want to say how GREAT it feels to be back into the swing of things....to include conducting these meditations for the public. I forgot how wonderful and relaxed I feel after when coming out of the meditation.
As I closed my eyes, I found myself at a little stream with moss covered rocks, vibrant green grass, and flowers. I dipped my fingers into the icy water and then cupped my hand in order to bring some of that wonderful water to my lips to drink. It was almost sweet in flavor. A voice told me, "Earth has everything within her to sustain you."
Suddenly I was shown visions of the past where people lived quite well off the land. Tribes had always known which plants were okay to eat and where to find water. I was then shown a scene somewhere in Africa. I saw a desert tribe using ancient knowledge of which plants to gather and how to get water from roots. I looked at some of these plants and would have never guessed that they could have been eaten because it all looked like scraggly scrub brush to me.
Then I was shown a bunch of starving people out in a lush valley. They were screaming at men guarding warehouses and crying for food. I looked around bewildered. There was so much green around them. Surely they could find something to eat within the plants and grass around them? The ocean was nearby. Couldn't they catch fish or find snails like they do on Survivor? I was told that people have gotten away from living off the land, and have forgotten that Mother Earth will always provide....even in the harshest of conditions. Instead, people got used to other people providing for them and when those provisions are taken away, people do not remember how to fend for themselves.
The visions disappeared and I was once again aware of being stretched out alongside the stream. I felt so relaxed and sleepy, but I began to think of the many things I needed to get done. I thought of how I should get up and get busy. Just then, little colorful fairies fluttered up alongside of me and danced around. The soft glow of their colorful lights made me even more relaxed and my eyes began to close. The earth felt so soft and cool beneath me. It was bliss. I knew that not only did Mother Earth provide in food, but also for rejuvenation. A snake slithered about 10 feet away from me. Now let me tell you that if that happened in real life, I would have jumped up shrieking and running. Yes, I have a snake phobia. But for some reason, I was not afraid in the meditation, nor did I feel threatened. Instead, I just understood that like myself, the snake had the right to share in the beautiful nature around us and it too would always be provided for. I had no right to tell it to go away. Then I fell into a deep, peaceful slumber.
The next thing I knew, I saw a young woman dressed in a long, white, heavy coat. She had a big furry hood pulled up on her head and her right hand was gripping the material of the coat around her neck area as if to further try to keep the cold out. When I saw the expression upon her face, however, I realized that she was not cold at all. Despite the white out blizzard conditions all around her, she was not shivering and her nose wasn't even red. Instead, she was apprehensive. She looked confused and lost. She kept looking all around and didn't know which direction to go. She took a few steps forward, then stopped. She tried to peer through the heavy snow to try to make out something recognizable, but it was near impossible. I was so proud of her for trying to move forward fearlessly (which is my new motto), but at the same time, even I could feel that it was time for her to completely stop and wait for the storm to clear.
And the woman did. She was tired. No matter which direction she looked, it all looked the same and brought her no further clarity. So she suddenly just dropped down where she was standing, hunkered down within her big coat, and tucked her head into her arms to keep the snow out of her face.
The next thing I knew, morning had come. It was a beautiful golden dawn of new beginnings. All traces of the storm and snow were gone. At the same time that the woman lifted her head, I gasped. Now that we could see everything around her, I had huge goosebumps on my arms when I noticed the huge cliff drop off right in front of her. Had she taken one more step, she would have gone right over the edge. I saw her look to her right and see the path off in the distance. She had gotten so far off track, but now with the clarity of a new day, she knew what she had to do and which direction to go. It would take time, but she would eventually get there and once more be on her way.
I really pondered this and asked to whoever might be listening, "So my new thing is 'moving forward fearlessly'. To me that means keep going even when you're unsure of where you may wind up. So are you trying to show me that this is a bad thing? Are we like the fool who may step off the cliff when giving caution to the wind?"
I was told it was not the same thing. What they were showing me that in times where we are very confused and moving blindly around, the best move to make is not to move at all. Moving forward fearlessly is going forth with a sense of direction, but swallowing the fear and ego that usually whispers to us that we will be unsuccessful or tries to hold us back from doing what we want to do. What they showed me in the blizzard scene was that in times where clarity eludes us, to move around blindly out of confusion may lead us into deeper situations that could take us far from where we want to be. Oh. I understood then.
The last scene to come to me was of sitting with Mother (you may call her Azna, Mary, Mother Goddess, etc.) in her rose garden. She had her arms wrapped around me and I felt so loved and safe. Archangel Michael approached us and took one of my hands to pull me up onto my feet. I was surprised when he put a glowing golden sword into my hands. He said, "It's your responsibility."
Wait a minute. Huh? What responsibility? I just wanted to enjoy the rose garden. I asked him to explain to me what he meant. He pointed off into the distance and I saw a very dark area void of all light. He nudged me towards it and told me that I was to cut through the darkness with the light of the sword. I had no clue where it lead to, but the minute I stepped into the darkness and the glow of the sword shone all around me, I found people suddenly lined up behind me. They were waiting for me to move forward so they could have light to make their way through the blackness. I really didn't want a leadership role, so I sighed in a very pouty, bratty way. I began to walk, however, and I turned at one point to look at the long line of people following me. I smiled when I realized that as more and more joined, the inner light emitting from within each of them grew brighter and brighter. I knew that within time, the light would be so great that there would not be a need for outer light sources......and the darkness would be completely gone.
As I closed my eyes, I found myself at a little stream with moss covered rocks, vibrant green grass, and flowers. I dipped my fingers into the icy water and then cupped my hand in order to bring some of that wonderful water to my lips to drink. It was almost sweet in flavor. A voice told me, "Earth has everything within her to sustain you."
Suddenly I was shown visions of the past where people lived quite well off the land. Tribes had always known which plants were okay to eat and where to find water. I was then shown a scene somewhere in Africa. I saw a desert tribe using ancient knowledge of which plants to gather and how to get water from roots. I looked at some of these plants and would have never guessed that they could have been eaten because it all looked like scraggly scrub brush to me.
Then I was shown a bunch of starving people out in a lush valley. They were screaming at men guarding warehouses and crying for food. I looked around bewildered. There was so much green around them. Surely they could find something to eat within the plants and grass around them? The ocean was nearby. Couldn't they catch fish or find snails like they do on Survivor? I was told that people have gotten away from living off the land, and have forgotten that Mother Earth will always provide....even in the harshest of conditions. Instead, people got used to other people providing for them and when those provisions are taken away, people do not remember how to fend for themselves.
The visions disappeared and I was once again aware of being stretched out alongside the stream. I felt so relaxed and sleepy, but I began to think of the many things I needed to get done. I thought of how I should get up and get busy. Just then, little colorful fairies fluttered up alongside of me and danced around. The soft glow of their colorful lights made me even more relaxed and my eyes began to close. The earth felt so soft and cool beneath me. It was bliss. I knew that not only did Mother Earth provide in food, but also for rejuvenation. A snake slithered about 10 feet away from me. Now let me tell you that if that happened in real life, I would have jumped up shrieking and running. Yes, I have a snake phobia. But for some reason, I was not afraid in the meditation, nor did I feel threatened. Instead, I just understood that like myself, the snake had the right to share in the beautiful nature around us and it too would always be provided for. I had no right to tell it to go away. Then I fell into a deep, peaceful slumber.
The next thing I knew, I saw a young woman dressed in a long, white, heavy coat. She had a big furry hood pulled up on her head and her right hand was gripping the material of the coat around her neck area as if to further try to keep the cold out. When I saw the expression upon her face, however, I realized that she was not cold at all. Despite the white out blizzard conditions all around her, she was not shivering and her nose wasn't even red. Instead, she was apprehensive. She looked confused and lost. She kept looking all around and didn't know which direction to go. She took a few steps forward, then stopped. She tried to peer through the heavy snow to try to make out something recognizable, but it was near impossible. I was so proud of her for trying to move forward fearlessly (which is my new motto), but at the same time, even I could feel that it was time for her to completely stop and wait for the storm to clear.
And the woman did. She was tired. No matter which direction she looked, it all looked the same and brought her no further clarity. So she suddenly just dropped down where she was standing, hunkered down within her big coat, and tucked her head into her arms to keep the snow out of her face.
The next thing I knew, morning had come. It was a beautiful golden dawn of new beginnings. All traces of the storm and snow were gone. At the same time that the woman lifted her head, I gasped. Now that we could see everything around her, I had huge goosebumps on my arms when I noticed the huge cliff drop off right in front of her. Had she taken one more step, she would have gone right over the edge. I saw her look to her right and see the path off in the distance. She had gotten so far off track, but now with the clarity of a new day, she knew what she had to do and which direction to go. It would take time, but she would eventually get there and once more be on her way.
I really pondered this and asked to whoever might be listening, "So my new thing is 'moving forward fearlessly'. To me that means keep going even when you're unsure of where you may wind up. So are you trying to show me that this is a bad thing? Are we like the fool who may step off the cliff when giving caution to the wind?"
I was told it was not the same thing. What they were showing me that in times where we are very confused and moving blindly around, the best move to make is not to move at all. Moving forward fearlessly is going forth with a sense of direction, but swallowing the fear and ego that usually whispers to us that we will be unsuccessful or tries to hold us back from doing what we want to do. What they showed me in the blizzard scene was that in times where clarity eludes us, to move around blindly out of confusion may lead us into deeper situations that could take us far from where we want to be. Oh. I understood then.
The last scene to come to me was of sitting with Mother (you may call her Azna, Mary, Mother Goddess, etc.) in her rose garden. She had her arms wrapped around me and I felt so loved and safe. Archangel Michael approached us and took one of my hands to pull me up onto my feet. I was surprised when he put a glowing golden sword into my hands. He said, "It's your responsibility."
Wait a minute. Huh? What responsibility? I just wanted to enjoy the rose garden. I asked him to explain to me what he meant. He pointed off into the distance and I saw a very dark area void of all light. He nudged me towards it and told me that I was to cut through the darkness with the light of the sword. I had no clue where it lead to, but the minute I stepped into the darkness and the glow of the sword shone all around me, I found people suddenly lined up behind me. They were waiting for me to move forward so they could have light to make their way through the blackness. I really didn't want a leadership role, so I sighed in a very pouty, bratty way. I began to walk, however, and I turned at one point to look at the long line of people following me. I smiled when I realized that as more and more joined, the inner light emitting from within each of them grew brighter and brighter. I knew that within time, the light would be so great that there would not be a need for outer light sources......and the darkness would be completely gone.
Monday, December 27, 2010
And so it begins...............
A while back around Spring of 2010, I had walked away from my intuitive services for what I thought was permanent. It was going in directions that I had not intended on and I had settled into a certain perception of what it all meant. There were so many factors that went into the decision, but all of those are in the past. What it all boiled down to is that I was taking reactions personally and the emotions of others on myself (in other words I was not staying in my own skin), I thought that people weren't actually listening to the messages and were becoming too afraid to make their own decisions.....which includes the willingness to make their own mistakes/taking responsibility, and I wanted to focus on my first love which was writing.
Many people were sad that I walked away from it all. But I was adamant. I had made up my mind that my services were ineffective and disempowered people rather than empowered them because of how they were afraid to make any move without consulting me. I was also feeling bruised because I felt certain friends were only using me for what I could provide for them.
I kept getting the guidance and nudge to go back. It doesn't matter what my first love really is. The fact is, I had taken on a responsibility and then left it unfinished. I don't subscribe to "life missions" as I believe life is what we choose to create. But there was a spiritual responsibility (much like a parental responsibility) and no matter how many times I run away from it, I know it's impossible to get away from. Most likely it's an agreement I made to experience and learn from in this lifetime. So I did make an attempt this past summer. But my heart just wasn't in it because I was trying to do it through a blog alone, and it just wasn't feeling right to me.
Then I got hit with an epiphany. I had a situation come up last month that I had no clue where it was going to lead. I found myself reaching up on my computer desk hutch shelf and pull out my velvet bag with contains my tarot cards. As I laid out the cards, I thought to myself, "What are you doing? Haven't you said so yourself that people should just ride the wave and not be so concerned about one possible outcome?"
I hesitated for a second, and then continued. As I read what the layout said, I realized that even though it showed some tough times ahead, I was not afraid anymore. I knew that now that I know what to possibly expect, I could from that moment decide to choose how I was going to react. And I chose that I was going to meet everything head on and could still be happy despite all outer surface appearances. I was empowered. I understood what was ahead and was making real plans on how to ride the wave.
Then it hit me what others had been telling me. As many people who had reacted badly to not getting what they wanted to hear, there were even more people who told me how much they had been helped by the guidance and had felt peaceful that they were going to be okay in the end. I had come to believe that my services were unhelpful. Now? I saw just how empowering they could be.
Then my mind immediately went to past experiences in my life. There were times when I didn't have direction or a clue what was happening and I would become so disheartened and depressed. But once I had some answers or at least truth of where things were heading, then I was able to pick myself up and take care of what I had to do. Hmmmmmmmmmm......as the saying goes, with knowledge comes power. I can go a step further and say that with knowledge comes CENTER.
And so I just knew I was going to get back into the saddle, but with some new self tools under my belt. No more taking things personally or reacting to reactions. No more feelings of resentment or being taken advantage of (meaning no more favors and believing that I am worthy of being paid). Changing my perception. Growing again. Continuing to search and share. Helping others find their own empowerment.
I've had a dream for a really long time of having a place where others could come to believe in themselves again and find quiet to get back in touch with their true core. That will come soon as I will begin to offer more things in my own local area. One step at a time. As I am great at writing things out and letting the words flow from my fingers, I suck at public speaking. Once I get past that hurdle of holding myself back and letting myself spread my wings in purpose, all lights will be green to soar! The only way to get started is just to do it, let myself know it's okay to stumble, and practice, practice, practice until it becomes a way of life. Now quit talking and get going, huh? Hee hee!
So came the decision to go ahead and invest back into a website AND setting up blogs to tie in with it. I'm loving every bit of the process and hope you will too!
Many people were sad that I walked away from it all. But I was adamant. I had made up my mind that my services were ineffective and disempowered people rather than empowered them because of how they were afraid to make any move without consulting me. I was also feeling bruised because I felt certain friends were only using me for what I could provide for them.
I kept getting the guidance and nudge to go back. It doesn't matter what my first love really is. The fact is, I had taken on a responsibility and then left it unfinished. I don't subscribe to "life missions" as I believe life is what we choose to create. But there was a spiritual responsibility (much like a parental responsibility) and no matter how many times I run away from it, I know it's impossible to get away from. Most likely it's an agreement I made to experience and learn from in this lifetime. So I did make an attempt this past summer. But my heart just wasn't in it because I was trying to do it through a blog alone, and it just wasn't feeling right to me.
Then I got hit with an epiphany. I had a situation come up last month that I had no clue where it was going to lead. I found myself reaching up on my computer desk hutch shelf and pull out my velvet bag with contains my tarot cards. As I laid out the cards, I thought to myself, "What are you doing? Haven't you said so yourself that people should just ride the wave and not be so concerned about one possible outcome?"
I hesitated for a second, and then continued. As I read what the layout said, I realized that even though it showed some tough times ahead, I was not afraid anymore. I knew that now that I know what to possibly expect, I could from that moment decide to choose how I was going to react. And I chose that I was going to meet everything head on and could still be happy despite all outer surface appearances. I was empowered. I understood what was ahead and was making real plans on how to ride the wave.
Then it hit me what others had been telling me. As many people who had reacted badly to not getting what they wanted to hear, there were even more people who told me how much they had been helped by the guidance and had felt peaceful that they were going to be okay in the end. I had come to believe that my services were unhelpful. Now? I saw just how empowering they could be.
Then my mind immediately went to past experiences in my life. There were times when I didn't have direction or a clue what was happening and I would become so disheartened and depressed. But once I had some answers or at least truth of where things were heading, then I was able to pick myself up and take care of what I had to do. Hmmmmmmmmmm......as the saying goes, with knowledge comes power. I can go a step further and say that with knowledge comes CENTER.
And so I just knew I was going to get back into the saddle, but with some new self tools under my belt. No more taking things personally or reacting to reactions. No more feelings of resentment or being taken advantage of (meaning no more favors and believing that I am worthy of being paid). Changing my perception. Growing again. Continuing to search and share. Helping others find their own empowerment.
I've had a dream for a really long time of having a place where others could come to believe in themselves again and find quiet to get back in touch with their true core. That will come soon as I will begin to offer more things in my own local area. One step at a time. As I am great at writing things out and letting the words flow from my fingers, I suck at public speaking. Once I get past that hurdle of holding myself back and letting myself spread my wings in purpose, all lights will be green to soar! The only way to get started is just to do it, let myself know it's okay to stumble, and practice, practice, practice until it becomes a way of life. Now quit talking and get going, huh? Hee hee!
So came the decision to go ahead and invest back into a website AND setting up blogs to tie in with it. I'm loving every bit of the process and hope you will too!
27 Dec 10: Welcome back! (Meditation)
I hadn't meditated in so long that I wasn't sure what to expect as I closed my eyes today. Would I sputter from being rusty? Would I receive anything? Was I going to have to be in deep meditation for a while before anything came through? Turns out, it's like I never left as a scene came immediately to me.
I was greeted by a whole host of beings in white: masters and other teachers. They were smiling with huge grins on their faces and they began to applaud. I heard a chorus of voices tell me, "Welcome back!"
I nodded in my physical world and prepared to jump right back in. Then a man with a white beard told me, "Rest for you shall begin tomorrow."
Oh. I guess today was not the day. Then I told him, "That's fine. Just like my cards told me today....to play and rest!"
He laughed and said, "That's why we also sent you the card to 'listen' because we wanted to make sure you listened to the guidance to play and rest."
Oh again. Duh! Ha ha! I guess I'll have to get used to this again.
I was greeted by a whole host of beings in white: masters and other teachers. They were smiling with huge grins on their faces and they began to applaud. I heard a chorus of voices tell me, "Welcome back!"
I nodded in my physical world and prepared to jump right back in. Then a man with a white beard told me, "Rest for you shall begin tomorrow."
Oh. I guess today was not the day. Then I told him, "That's fine. Just like my cards told me today....to play and rest!"
He laughed and said, "That's why we also sent you the card to 'listen' because we wanted to make sure you listened to the guidance to play and rest."
Oh again. Duh! Ha ha! I guess I'll have to get used to this again.
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