It never ceases to amaze me the things people think they have to do in order to be more "spiritual" or open up to their intuition and psychic awareness. Let me tell you that the only thing you have to do is just be yourself and do what feels right to you.
There are many people out there that will try to dictate all the dos and don'ts....and if you go don't follow these rules, then you're supposedly not spiritual. Wow. Isn't that the reason why so many of us left mainstream organized religion? So many rules and if you don't follow them, you're not a real whatever? That would mean that being spiritual and intuitive is only reserved for those special few, rather than be available to everyone. NOT!
Instead of realizing that these are simply people with their own ideas of what makes one spiritual or not, people start spending all sorts of money on crystals and other tools to get back in tuned with themselves, quit eating meat (even if they're dying for a hamburger), chastise themselves if they think something negative, feel bad about the car they drive, try to change their job because those in the spiritual community would frown upon it (such as serving in the military)............just in the effort to fit in and hope to be able to tap into the various clairs for guidance and knowing.
I say quit punishing yourselves! Being spiritual isn't about deprivation, outside tools, and feeling badly if you aren't acting in ways that others say a spiritual person would. You cannot contain spiritualism and intuition into a neat little box. It's ever expanding! It encompasses everything! It's messy! No matter how much you try to define it and put boundaries around it, it's just going to flow right on over in whatever way it wants to. How you can you put a label on something that is not only within, but all around you?
There are so many people who have shared what has worked for them. And that is exactly how you should view things.....advice always with the opportunity to decide for yourself if it's something you'd like or not. If it makes your body feel good to eat vegetarian, raw, or vegan, then by all means do it! If you like holding crystals while you meditate because you like the energy you can feel from them, do it! If you notice a happy difference in getting rid of all chemicals in your environment, go for it! The point is, it should feel GOOD to you. If you're feeling guilty for not being or doing all these things, you're moving away from the original intent. If you do not feel happy while making changes, then you are not staying true to yourself. Spirit doesn't care if you eat meat, have shot a gun or been deployed to Iraq, or anything else that is an experience but doesn't define who you are. Do you really think Spirit is going to withhold from you because of what you do? No. Only we hold ourselves back.
Just be yourself and march to the beat of your own drum. You can be just as spiritual and in tuned to your intuition as you do the things you love. If it makes you happy, you have found your center. And within your center, you just ARE. I've said this before and I'll say it again. "I AM" is the most powerful thing you can ever be.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
28 Dec. 10: Sustained by nature, waiting for clarity, and cutting through the darkness (Meditation)
Before I begin, I just want to say how GREAT it feels to be back into the swing of things....to include conducting these meditations for the public. I forgot how wonderful and relaxed I feel after when coming out of the meditation.
As I closed my eyes, I found myself at a little stream with moss covered rocks, vibrant green grass, and flowers. I dipped my fingers into the icy water and then cupped my hand in order to bring some of that wonderful water to my lips to drink. It was almost sweet in flavor. A voice told me, "Earth has everything within her to sustain you."
Suddenly I was shown visions of the past where people lived quite well off the land. Tribes had always known which plants were okay to eat and where to find water. I was then shown a scene somewhere in Africa. I saw a desert tribe using ancient knowledge of which plants to gather and how to get water from roots. I looked at some of these plants and would have never guessed that they could have been eaten because it all looked like scraggly scrub brush to me.
Then I was shown a bunch of starving people out in a lush valley. They were screaming at men guarding warehouses and crying for food. I looked around bewildered. There was so much green around them. Surely they could find something to eat within the plants and grass around them? The ocean was nearby. Couldn't they catch fish or find snails like they do on Survivor? I was told that people have gotten away from living off the land, and have forgotten that Mother Earth will always provide....even in the harshest of conditions. Instead, people got used to other people providing for them and when those provisions are taken away, people do not remember how to fend for themselves.
The visions disappeared and I was once again aware of being stretched out alongside the stream. I felt so relaxed and sleepy, but I began to think of the many things I needed to get done. I thought of how I should get up and get busy. Just then, little colorful fairies fluttered up alongside of me and danced around. The soft glow of their colorful lights made me even more relaxed and my eyes began to close. The earth felt so soft and cool beneath me. It was bliss. I knew that not only did Mother Earth provide in food, but also for rejuvenation. A snake slithered about 10 feet away from me. Now let me tell you that if that happened in real life, I would have jumped up shrieking and running. Yes, I have a snake phobia. But for some reason, I was not afraid in the meditation, nor did I feel threatened. Instead, I just understood that like myself, the snake had the right to share in the beautiful nature around us and it too would always be provided for. I had no right to tell it to go away. Then I fell into a deep, peaceful slumber.
The next thing I knew, I saw a young woman dressed in a long, white, heavy coat. She had a big furry hood pulled up on her head and her right hand was gripping the material of the coat around her neck area as if to further try to keep the cold out. When I saw the expression upon her face, however, I realized that she was not cold at all. Despite the white out blizzard conditions all around her, she was not shivering and her nose wasn't even red. Instead, she was apprehensive. She looked confused and lost. She kept looking all around and didn't know which direction to go. She took a few steps forward, then stopped. She tried to peer through the heavy snow to try to make out something recognizable, but it was near impossible. I was so proud of her for trying to move forward fearlessly (which is my new motto), but at the same time, even I could feel that it was time for her to completely stop and wait for the storm to clear.
And the woman did. She was tired. No matter which direction she looked, it all looked the same and brought her no further clarity. So she suddenly just dropped down where she was standing, hunkered down within her big coat, and tucked her head into her arms to keep the snow out of her face.
The next thing I knew, morning had come. It was a beautiful golden dawn of new beginnings. All traces of the storm and snow were gone. At the same time that the woman lifted her head, I gasped. Now that we could see everything around her, I had huge goosebumps on my arms when I noticed the huge cliff drop off right in front of her. Had she taken one more step, she would have gone right over the edge. I saw her look to her right and see the path off in the distance. She had gotten so far off track, but now with the clarity of a new day, she knew what she had to do and which direction to go. It would take time, but she would eventually get there and once more be on her way.
I really pondered this and asked to whoever might be listening, "So my new thing is 'moving forward fearlessly'. To me that means keep going even when you're unsure of where you may wind up. So are you trying to show me that this is a bad thing? Are we like the fool who may step off the cliff when giving caution to the wind?"
I was told it was not the same thing. What they were showing me that in times where we are very confused and moving blindly around, the best move to make is not to move at all. Moving forward fearlessly is going forth with a sense of direction, but swallowing the fear and ego that usually whispers to us that we will be unsuccessful or tries to hold us back from doing what we want to do. What they showed me in the blizzard scene was that in times where clarity eludes us, to move around blindly out of confusion may lead us into deeper situations that could take us far from where we want to be. Oh. I understood then.
The last scene to come to me was of sitting with Mother (you may call her Azna, Mary, Mother Goddess, etc.) in her rose garden. She had her arms wrapped around me and I felt so loved and safe. Archangel Michael approached us and took one of my hands to pull me up onto my feet. I was surprised when he put a glowing golden sword into my hands. He said, "It's your responsibility."
Wait a minute. Huh? What responsibility? I just wanted to enjoy the rose garden. I asked him to explain to me what he meant. He pointed off into the distance and I saw a very dark area void of all light. He nudged me towards it and told me that I was to cut through the darkness with the light of the sword. I had no clue where it lead to, but the minute I stepped into the darkness and the glow of the sword shone all around me, I found people suddenly lined up behind me. They were waiting for me to move forward so they could have light to make their way through the blackness. I really didn't want a leadership role, so I sighed in a very pouty, bratty way. I began to walk, however, and I turned at one point to look at the long line of people following me. I smiled when I realized that as more and more joined, the inner light emitting from within each of them grew brighter and brighter. I knew that within time, the light would be so great that there would not be a need for outer light sources......and the darkness would be completely gone.
As I closed my eyes, I found myself at a little stream with moss covered rocks, vibrant green grass, and flowers. I dipped my fingers into the icy water and then cupped my hand in order to bring some of that wonderful water to my lips to drink. It was almost sweet in flavor. A voice told me, "Earth has everything within her to sustain you."
Suddenly I was shown visions of the past where people lived quite well off the land. Tribes had always known which plants were okay to eat and where to find water. I was then shown a scene somewhere in Africa. I saw a desert tribe using ancient knowledge of which plants to gather and how to get water from roots. I looked at some of these plants and would have never guessed that they could have been eaten because it all looked like scraggly scrub brush to me.
Then I was shown a bunch of starving people out in a lush valley. They were screaming at men guarding warehouses and crying for food. I looked around bewildered. There was so much green around them. Surely they could find something to eat within the plants and grass around them? The ocean was nearby. Couldn't they catch fish or find snails like they do on Survivor? I was told that people have gotten away from living off the land, and have forgotten that Mother Earth will always provide....even in the harshest of conditions. Instead, people got used to other people providing for them and when those provisions are taken away, people do not remember how to fend for themselves.
The visions disappeared and I was once again aware of being stretched out alongside the stream. I felt so relaxed and sleepy, but I began to think of the many things I needed to get done. I thought of how I should get up and get busy. Just then, little colorful fairies fluttered up alongside of me and danced around. The soft glow of their colorful lights made me even more relaxed and my eyes began to close. The earth felt so soft and cool beneath me. It was bliss. I knew that not only did Mother Earth provide in food, but also for rejuvenation. A snake slithered about 10 feet away from me. Now let me tell you that if that happened in real life, I would have jumped up shrieking and running. Yes, I have a snake phobia. But for some reason, I was not afraid in the meditation, nor did I feel threatened. Instead, I just understood that like myself, the snake had the right to share in the beautiful nature around us and it too would always be provided for. I had no right to tell it to go away. Then I fell into a deep, peaceful slumber.
The next thing I knew, I saw a young woman dressed in a long, white, heavy coat. She had a big furry hood pulled up on her head and her right hand was gripping the material of the coat around her neck area as if to further try to keep the cold out. When I saw the expression upon her face, however, I realized that she was not cold at all. Despite the white out blizzard conditions all around her, she was not shivering and her nose wasn't even red. Instead, she was apprehensive. She looked confused and lost. She kept looking all around and didn't know which direction to go. She took a few steps forward, then stopped. She tried to peer through the heavy snow to try to make out something recognizable, but it was near impossible. I was so proud of her for trying to move forward fearlessly (which is my new motto), but at the same time, even I could feel that it was time for her to completely stop and wait for the storm to clear.
And the woman did. She was tired. No matter which direction she looked, it all looked the same and brought her no further clarity. So she suddenly just dropped down where she was standing, hunkered down within her big coat, and tucked her head into her arms to keep the snow out of her face.
The next thing I knew, morning had come. It was a beautiful golden dawn of new beginnings. All traces of the storm and snow were gone. At the same time that the woman lifted her head, I gasped. Now that we could see everything around her, I had huge goosebumps on my arms when I noticed the huge cliff drop off right in front of her. Had she taken one more step, she would have gone right over the edge. I saw her look to her right and see the path off in the distance. She had gotten so far off track, but now with the clarity of a new day, she knew what she had to do and which direction to go. It would take time, but she would eventually get there and once more be on her way.
I really pondered this and asked to whoever might be listening, "So my new thing is 'moving forward fearlessly'. To me that means keep going even when you're unsure of where you may wind up. So are you trying to show me that this is a bad thing? Are we like the fool who may step off the cliff when giving caution to the wind?"
I was told it was not the same thing. What they were showing me that in times where we are very confused and moving blindly around, the best move to make is not to move at all. Moving forward fearlessly is going forth with a sense of direction, but swallowing the fear and ego that usually whispers to us that we will be unsuccessful or tries to hold us back from doing what we want to do. What they showed me in the blizzard scene was that in times where clarity eludes us, to move around blindly out of confusion may lead us into deeper situations that could take us far from where we want to be. Oh. I understood then.
The last scene to come to me was of sitting with Mother (you may call her Azna, Mary, Mother Goddess, etc.) in her rose garden. She had her arms wrapped around me and I felt so loved and safe. Archangel Michael approached us and took one of my hands to pull me up onto my feet. I was surprised when he put a glowing golden sword into my hands. He said, "It's your responsibility."
Wait a minute. Huh? What responsibility? I just wanted to enjoy the rose garden. I asked him to explain to me what he meant. He pointed off into the distance and I saw a very dark area void of all light. He nudged me towards it and told me that I was to cut through the darkness with the light of the sword. I had no clue where it lead to, but the minute I stepped into the darkness and the glow of the sword shone all around me, I found people suddenly lined up behind me. They were waiting for me to move forward so they could have light to make their way through the blackness. I really didn't want a leadership role, so I sighed in a very pouty, bratty way. I began to walk, however, and I turned at one point to look at the long line of people following me. I smiled when I realized that as more and more joined, the inner light emitting from within each of them grew brighter and brighter. I knew that within time, the light would be so great that there would not be a need for outer light sources......and the darkness would be completely gone.
Monday, December 27, 2010
And so it begins...............
A while back around Spring of 2010, I had walked away from my intuitive services for what I thought was permanent. It was going in directions that I had not intended on and I had settled into a certain perception of what it all meant. There were so many factors that went into the decision, but all of those are in the past. What it all boiled down to is that I was taking reactions personally and the emotions of others on myself (in other words I was not staying in my own skin), I thought that people weren't actually listening to the messages and were becoming too afraid to make their own decisions.....which includes the willingness to make their own mistakes/taking responsibility, and I wanted to focus on my first love which was writing.
Many people were sad that I walked away from it all. But I was adamant. I had made up my mind that my services were ineffective and disempowered people rather than empowered them because of how they were afraid to make any move without consulting me. I was also feeling bruised because I felt certain friends were only using me for what I could provide for them.
I kept getting the guidance and nudge to go back. It doesn't matter what my first love really is. The fact is, I had taken on a responsibility and then left it unfinished. I don't subscribe to "life missions" as I believe life is what we choose to create. But there was a spiritual responsibility (much like a parental responsibility) and no matter how many times I run away from it, I know it's impossible to get away from. Most likely it's an agreement I made to experience and learn from in this lifetime. So I did make an attempt this past summer. But my heart just wasn't in it because I was trying to do it through a blog alone, and it just wasn't feeling right to me.
Then I got hit with an epiphany. I had a situation come up last month that I had no clue where it was going to lead. I found myself reaching up on my computer desk hutch shelf and pull out my velvet bag with contains my tarot cards. As I laid out the cards, I thought to myself, "What are you doing? Haven't you said so yourself that people should just ride the wave and not be so concerned about one possible outcome?"
I hesitated for a second, and then continued. As I read what the layout said, I realized that even though it showed some tough times ahead, I was not afraid anymore. I knew that now that I know what to possibly expect, I could from that moment decide to choose how I was going to react. And I chose that I was going to meet everything head on and could still be happy despite all outer surface appearances. I was empowered. I understood what was ahead and was making real plans on how to ride the wave.
Then it hit me what others had been telling me. As many people who had reacted badly to not getting what they wanted to hear, there were even more people who told me how much they had been helped by the guidance and had felt peaceful that they were going to be okay in the end. I had come to believe that my services were unhelpful. Now? I saw just how empowering they could be.
Then my mind immediately went to past experiences in my life. There were times when I didn't have direction or a clue what was happening and I would become so disheartened and depressed. But once I had some answers or at least truth of where things were heading, then I was able to pick myself up and take care of what I had to do. Hmmmmmmmmmm......as the saying goes, with knowledge comes power. I can go a step further and say that with knowledge comes CENTER.
And so I just knew I was going to get back into the saddle, but with some new self tools under my belt. No more taking things personally or reacting to reactions. No more feelings of resentment or being taken advantage of (meaning no more favors and believing that I am worthy of being paid). Changing my perception. Growing again. Continuing to search and share. Helping others find their own empowerment.
I've had a dream for a really long time of having a place where others could come to believe in themselves again and find quiet to get back in touch with their true core. That will come soon as I will begin to offer more things in my own local area. One step at a time. As I am great at writing things out and letting the words flow from my fingers, I suck at public speaking. Once I get past that hurdle of holding myself back and letting myself spread my wings in purpose, all lights will be green to soar! The only way to get started is just to do it, let myself know it's okay to stumble, and practice, practice, practice until it becomes a way of life. Now quit talking and get going, huh? Hee hee!
So came the decision to go ahead and invest back into a website AND setting up blogs to tie in with it. I'm loving every bit of the process and hope you will too!
Many people were sad that I walked away from it all. But I was adamant. I had made up my mind that my services were ineffective and disempowered people rather than empowered them because of how they were afraid to make any move without consulting me. I was also feeling bruised because I felt certain friends were only using me for what I could provide for them.
I kept getting the guidance and nudge to go back. It doesn't matter what my first love really is. The fact is, I had taken on a responsibility and then left it unfinished. I don't subscribe to "life missions" as I believe life is what we choose to create. But there was a spiritual responsibility (much like a parental responsibility) and no matter how many times I run away from it, I know it's impossible to get away from. Most likely it's an agreement I made to experience and learn from in this lifetime. So I did make an attempt this past summer. But my heart just wasn't in it because I was trying to do it through a blog alone, and it just wasn't feeling right to me.
Then I got hit with an epiphany. I had a situation come up last month that I had no clue where it was going to lead. I found myself reaching up on my computer desk hutch shelf and pull out my velvet bag with contains my tarot cards. As I laid out the cards, I thought to myself, "What are you doing? Haven't you said so yourself that people should just ride the wave and not be so concerned about one possible outcome?"
I hesitated for a second, and then continued. As I read what the layout said, I realized that even though it showed some tough times ahead, I was not afraid anymore. I knew that now that I know what to possibly expect, I could from that moment decide to choose how I was going to react. And I chose that I was going to meet everything head on and could still be happy despite all outer surface appearances. I was empowered. I understood what was ahead and was making real plans on how to ride the wave.
Then it hit me what others had been telling me. As many people who had reacted badly to not getting what they wanted to hear, there were even more people who told me how much they had been helped by the guidance and had felt peaceful that they were going to be okay in the end. I had come to believe that my services were unhelpful. Now? I saw just how empowering they could be.
Then my mind immediately went to past experiences in my life. There were times when I didn't have direction or a clue what was happening and I would become so disheartened and depressed. But once I had some answers or at least truth of where things were heading, then I was able to pick myself up and take care of what I had to do. Hmmmmmmmmmm......as the saying goes, with knowledge comes power. I can go a step further and say that with knowledge comes CENTER.
And so I just knew I was going to get back into the saddle, but with some new self tools under my belt. No more taking things personally or reacting to reactions. No more feelings of resentment or being taken advantage of (meaning no more favors and believing that I am worthy of being paid). Changing my perception. Growing again. Continuing to search and share. Helping others find their own empowerment.
I've had a dream for a really long time of having a place where others could come to believe in themselves again and find quiet to get back in touch with their true core. That will come soon as I will begin to offer more things in my own local area. One step at a time. As I am great at writing things out and letting the words flow from my fingers, I suck at public speaking. Once I get past that hurdle of holding myself back and letting myself spread my wings in purpose, all lights will be green to soar! The only way to get started is just to do it, let myself know it's okay to stumble, and practice, practice, practice until it becomes a way of life. Now quit talking and get going, huh? Hee hee!
So came the decision to go ahead and invest back into a website AND setting up blogs to tie in with it. I'm loving every bit of the process and hope you will too!
27 Dec 10: Welcome back! (Meditation)
I hadn't meditated in so long that I wasn't sure what to expect as I closed my eyes today. Would I sputter from being rusty? Would I receive anything? Was I going to have to be in deep meditation for a while before anything came through? Turns out, it's like I never left as a scene came immediately to me.
I was greeted by a whole host of beings in white: masters and other teachers. They were smiling with huge grins on their faces and they began to applaud. I heard a chorus of voices tell me, "Welcome back!"
I nodded in my physical world and prepared to jump right back in. Then a man with a white beard told me, "Rest for you shall begin tomorrow."
Oh. I guess today was not the day. Then I told him, "That's fine. Just like my cards told me today....to play and rest!"
He laughed and said, "That's why we also sent you the card to 'listen' because we wanted to make sure you listened to the guidance to play and rest."
Oh again. Duh! Ha ha! I guess I'll have to get used to this again.
I was greeted by a whole host of beings in white: masters and other teachers. They were smiling with huge grins on their faces and they began to applaud. I heard a chorus of voices tell me, "Welcome back!"
I nodded in my physical world and prepared to jump right back in. Then a man with a white beard told me, "Rest for you shall begin tomorrow."
Oh. I guess today was not the day. Then I told him, "That's fine. Just like my cards told me today....to play and rest!"
He laughed and said, "That's why we also sent you the card to 'listen' because we wanted to make sure you listened to the guidance to play and rest."
Oh again. Duh! Ha ha! I guess I'll have to get used to this again.
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