My "Place" is Back!

Something I wanted to share that I was reminded of during a message with my friend this morning.  In 2002, I began this dream of having a place one day where people could come to get away from the grit of daily life and find quiet within.  A place where people could grow and explore their true essences, and not their roles they play in this life.  Over the years, this place has become one that will require a huge lottery win (LOL!), but since it's my dream the sky is the limit!  I envisioned people driving up this long driveway lined with rose bushes everywhere.  Have to have the roses as they've always had a special meaning for me.  Plus lots of butterfly attracting flowers such as lantana, which would be perfect for our harsh summer conditions (I saw this place as being in Temecula or in San Diego's North County).  As the people would get closer, they would see a large statue in the middle of a circular island filled with more roses.  Sometimes this statue is an archangel.  Sometimes this statue is of a goddess to represent the creative and loving power within us all, male or female.

Then they would see the building.  White with glass windows from top to bottom...an entire front of glass.  Inside there's a reception area, where people are greeted with a welcoming smile and they could be directed to where they needed to go.  The lobby is filled with soft, comfortable couches and chairs; and lots of plants.  Off to the right side as you face the reception area is a small shop filled with books, crystals, and other trinkets.  To the right side of that is a small cafe that would specialize in life giving foods.  Beyond that would be individual rooms for Reiki practitioners, crystal healers, my readings, yoga, etc.  To the left of the reception is an area that takes you to themed private meditation rooms that people can rent for 30 minutes to an hour.  The themes would differ per room, but each would be filled with pillows to sit upon, the lighting dimmed for relaxation, and people would have the option of having music or no music depending on how they wish to meditate.  Beyond all this in the back would be a huge ball room or auditorium where seminars can be held by guest speakers, churches of all faiths can rent to hold their services if they are without a building of their own, and people can rent out for wedding receptions. 

Behind the building are a couple of acres of walled in gardens and expansive lawns for anyone who needs a quiet place of meditation, but do not want to pay for the private meditation rooms.  There are fountains, roses galore, benches, huge trees, and private little nooks within manicured bushes for quiet and private contemplation.

And so this place has grown in my mind and I never worried about HOW it would happen.  I just knew that eventually it would.  I also knew that one day I would turn it over to someone else and move away from the area, since I can take my actual work with me anywhere in the world.  

Well, the funny thing is, over a year ago when I decided to get back into readings after walking away from it for a while, I committed myself fully to my purpose.  The promise was that I would give all messages and such without holding anything back (little did I know what that would entail or I would have thought harder about it.  Ha ha!  I had NO clue that part of it was going to mean contacting people about deceased loved ones and not knowing how they felt about what I do, so that was hard for me) and in return, my path would be cleared for my passions in life...which is to eventually write books and travel.

So I committed myself, and got busy going back to all these bunch of services I kept adding over the years.  To be honest, it was too much.  Too many options, too many people all over the place in trying to find a good fit for them.  During stressful times, I tried to go back to my "place" because it always brought me back to center and calm.  It was no longer there, however.  I tried to concentrate, but I would vaguely see the building and then it would fizzle.  I gave up and decided to just let it go.  It probably was never meant to be anyway.  What made me think that someone like me could ever have a place like that?  I've always considered myself the least likely person to ever do work like this in the first place because I've gone into it kicking and screaming half the time and I'm still falling on my face and learning almost daily.  Yeah, places like that belong to big wigs like Wayne Dyer, Cheryl Richardson, Eckhart Tolle, Doreen Virtue, Ester and Jerry Hicks, etc....not plain ol' Chris from Menifee (and I don't even like Menifee) who has a hard time keeping up with bills, has nicknamed one of her neighbors Gran Torino, swears up a blue streak at times, growls at people at Target, tell elderly ladies to leave my dog alone when they scare her on our walks, etc.  ROFL!  Oh, to walk around with the golden aura of peace upon my face and speak eloquently with everyone I meet and have them all want me to come speak to their groups.....ummmmmmm......sure.  Not.

Then an amazing thing happened.  Yesterday, as you all know, I had a guided epiphany and decision that helped me to change how I did things and how to bring it all back around to my original intention and purpose.  Then last night.....my "place" suddenly came back.  I could see it clearly as well as the operations of the facility.  I knew without a doubt that I was back on track, and it's the most wonderful thing ever.  I know things will slow down (due to the bulk of my services being sought after are those of the predictive style rather than the empowering style) and I will most likely be working in the conventional sense for a while, but I am fine with that because I'm being shown the path once again and I can't wait to get to see it in person!