Self-Employment: Coming Back to Alignment

When it comes to being self-employed, you may have walked away from your business or businesses at different times because business was slow, because you couldn't afford the overhead and upkeep anymore, the only people that seemed to want your services or products are those that either want them for free or wanted you to buy their products if they bought yours (stuff you didn't want and couldn't afford anyway), and you may have convinced yourself that you're just not cut out to be self-employed because you can't ever seem to get things going to get to that level of being self-sustaining. So you throw up your hands in the air and say, "I'm done!"

The minute you walk away, suddenly everyone wants your products and services and they have money in hand. You tell them you're not doing it anymore and they say that they really needed such and such and do you know of anyone else who is providing such a service or product? And you want to shake them and say, "Where the hell were you when I needed customers because I couldn't pay my bills?!" LOL!

So you pace around your house kicking yourself and then you turn to God and say, "You wanted me to follow my heart! You kept giving me signs that I am better at self-employment! I have sent in hundreds of job applications and no one will hire me! I really need a job whether it's conventional or my own! So what do you want from me?! If you really think this is my path, then throw me a bone once in a while, okay? Why does no one want my services until after I have quit? I need some support here, God. You need to help me out and send me people!"

And God...or the Universe.....answers, "I have helped you. I have shown you that when you completely release your struggle, all is well."

Oh. Struggle and the feelings struggle, lack, desperation, unworthiness, self-doubt, etc., can only serve to bring more of the same. Release, however, well.....brings release of those situations.

Yeah, I resemble that remark. I realized that it's not trying to find the right business that is going to make me a success, it's a matter of feeling successful already on the inside to make whatever I'm doing the same. When I was younger, I was so good at selling that I once sold an ordinary stick off the ground to a kid on my street for $3, which was a lot back in the 70s. Ha ha! Mom gave us chocolate pops to sell in high school for 50 cents each as a way to give my sister and I more spending money. I sold mine for $2 each and did not lack for customers. So what happened? I lost confidence in myself after I got out of the Air Force and that changed the whole ball game. It's not that I had failed at so many attempts at self-independence. It was that I had already defeated myself before I even began. It only took me.....uhhhhhhhh.....nearly 41 years to figure that out. :-D

So to all of you who have walked in my shoes, keep going and realize that if things aren't working out very well, it may not be that the well is dry in your particular field of interest, but that your inner workings may be the culprit. Much love to you all!